Real

The shivers down my spine

The tremble in my hands

I can’t lie and say they ain’t real

But this mind of mine

And this coal-drenched heart

Won’t accept this to be real

The touch, the feel

The sounds that appease

It won’t understand that this is real

The words you utter,

The butterflies in my stomach that flutter

It just ignores and pretend they aren’t real

The feeling that grows

From the nose to my toes

It just won’t allow for it to be real

The depth in your eyes and what lies inside

Yes, my heart is too scared to ask what is real


I know it's crappy...I know I am supposed to have blogged about moving to Malay and all about changes and everything...but my mind is kinda blank these days...so, here it is...yours truly, confused as ever... :)

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It would seem...
The silver lining along the cloud
The drops of sunshine through the haze
A humble ounce of beauty
...visible in this atrocious place
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If You Can Dream
There is a world where hope
And dreams can last for all time
A wondrous place to go
You'll know it when your heart finds

Hearing our song as old as rhyme
Hold my hand we're gonna fly
What a magic ride
And just a kiss away

If you can dream
The wish we're making
On a star is coming true
The colours of the wind will lead
My heart right back to you

'Cause if you can dream
Reflections in a diamond sky
Come shining on true
Romance will always be so new
And love will save the day
If you can dream

Someday my prince will come
It's certain as the sun rise
One day the slipper fits
Then you see the love in his eyes

It's a tale as old as time
There's no mountain we can't climb
When you're finally mine
And just a kiss away

If you can dream
The wish we're making
On a star is coming true
The colours of the wind will lead
My heart right back to you

'Cause if you can dream
Reflections in a diamond sky
Come shining on true
Romance will always be so new
And love will save the day
If you can dream

So the story goes
Never die the rose
There's a whole new world
Waiting there for us
(Waiting just for us)

If you can dream
The wish we're making
On a star is coming true
The colours of the wind will lead
My heart right back to you

'Cause if you can dream
Reflections in a diamond sky
Come shining on true
Romance will always be so new
And love will save the day
Love will say the day
If you can dream

this is an official disney song; A song that is written specially for the Disney Princess franchise. It features the voice of Jodi Benson as Ariel, Judy Kuhn as Pocahontas, Paige O'Hara as Belle, Lea Salonga as Jasmine and Mulan, Christie Houser as Aurora and Susan Stevens Logan as Cinderella.

you can check out the video in here...
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Rain on Sunshine
Joel: I can't see anything that I don't like about you.
Clementine: But you will! But you will. You know, you will think of things. And I'll get bored
with you and feel trapped because that's what happens with me.
Joel: Okay.
Clementine: [pauses] Okay.

From the script of :
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind 2004
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Not A Mind Reader...

im not a mind reader
i can't tell whether you are happy or not
when you smile and say fine
i cant tell whether its okay for me
to do what i do and to say what i say
i need more than a smile
i need more than a nod
i need more than just some emoticon
to really understand what you feel
what you need

im not a mind reader
so just tell me out loud
let me have it harsh and cold
cause i deserve to know
cause i'd do the same for you
cause you know its true...
that i wouldn't do anything
if it were to hurt you...
as long as you tell me
and you let me know..

cause...
im not a mind reader...
and i can't feel the psychic vibes from so far...

photo cred : Innocence by RedSigns
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eternal desire...

The feeling of want..of need...that you cannot be satisfied...that you cannot walk this earth again the same way if not given the scent of what your heart aches for...it desires for....

This feeling grows...it consumes...and there is no end to it...for a desire can never be satisfied...you can never have enough of it..call it an addiction if you may, but to those who has ever gotten a taste of it...an addiction is like having a sweet tooth compared...

Desires rage fire...and throws itself into the iciest of cold...and there it rages fire again...the mixture of hot and cold...eventually eats one another...and leave the dead marks of satisfaction...and the desire fulfilled...yet longing for another battle to be fought...

And then there is the desire most want...the desire to be desired...to have a man tremble in front of your eyes...to see the rage of fire in his eyes..which looks like it would consume him, lest he was unable to touch you...we have heard the fables...read the stories...where the mere revealing of a hand of a geisha or the caressing of the neck of some woman in the medieval times would ignite a man's passion beyond what words he could say...and his hands tremble to touch her...as though she was sacred...as though touching her was a pleasure he could not have...

What i hold between my thighs...and within my bosoms..is sacred..it is sacred because i believe it to be..and i desire to be desired for what i have...for being a woman..and i desire to be looked at with lust even with my body hidden and hands crossed upon my lap...for i am a woman...and my body...my mind...my soul is mine to hold..and mine to give..

i do understand, that some of you may think that what i have written is too mature or pornographic for me to write..so to all of them, im just gonna act real immature, and tell them to fuck off... :)

photo credits : Desire by xequemate
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nightmares and lullaby...


cry baby cry
little demons are here tonight
to take you into nightmares
you wouldnt have thought of
to take up your innocence
and rid you of sanity
to light up the devil's lair
with your eyes tonight
to creep up you back
and send bumps down the spine
to take away the purity
and honesty in your prayer
and sprinkle the devils dust
upon your feet's bare
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